Friday, August 17, 2007

Passing Through..


Its Already late!

some accident on the Highway!

I reached Vellore at 11 45 night.

Even i tried to sleep in the bus. but i cant.

When i crossed visharam

. Some burgas ladies, muslim ladies got down at Visharam.

Some got down at Sathuvacari.

I reached vellore at 11 30 night.

Vellore . I purchased some drugs. I


took some food.The food is oilish.

the chicken is oilish. the Kuska( ! ) is oilish.

I just oredrd those to tatse the vellore food. Nastaliga! the late night food is just indigestable.

I got vomiting sense.


Slowly All the shops beenclosed. I slwoly walked through the CMC road. reached Bussatnd. it's 12 30 midnight then.


The bus stand was shadowed with Sodium lamp. Bangalore, chennai busstand was just crowded.

I passed it.

I reached my bussatnd. Not so much croweded now. People, mosltly villagers just siting here and there. my eys were drowsy. I got more vommiting sensation. I walked here and there. a boy of 14 or 15 years holding a Small girl's hand , Just walkd and sat on the platform. He looked lit bit worried.when she grown up, would the little girl recall the sodium lamp and her brothers holdings?

There was a bus 216 to chetpet, villupuram . I was about to get in. The driver said the bus at 1 o clok. now we cant enter. he strted changing the dress. He removed the dhothi and Changed in to phant. We all saw his under Phant he not botherd!

Another boy, Just peeping through a telepohne"s coin hole. its dark there. I walked here and there.If i get vommit, It would be noraml. should i? i walked here and there. some auto walas. Some old women. Some yellow sarie women with their husbands. Their husbands heads were lhaven. Might be returned from Tirupathi.




I got 3 pockets of water from a shaddow shop.I decied to vomit. got burning . Toy now hitting the Phone box. Hhiiting and made nosie. He might have dropped some un- returnd coins in side. I wonder , to whom he made phone call at that night!

I sat some were else. The sodium lamp was just dizzy. A man with a Big suitcase walk towards her. He too must have been passed the bangalore busstand. His Big suitcas was with some wheels. He might be returning from bangalore or some were else from deep Karnataka. After a long time he was about to reach his home it seemd! A boy asked his father some money to pee. He gave him. He was just 15 or 16. he walk alone in the bustand. I too got urg. I walkd behind him. There written on the toilet wall:" Man can enter inside. Dog can pee out side the wall".


Some Dogs peeing out side the wall by reading it. I enter in and proved my self a man.

Better to vomit. All look mystic,, calm, everybody is quit with abnormal silent. The night pass by. Everybody admiring the night silence. It pass by. A man with a lungi was talking with a boy of 13 years. The man was just around 30 or 28 years. His voice was so feminine but suddenly i understand who he was. He gave or recived some money from that boy. The lungi man resembels all the nearbyfaces.




I suddenly noticed a girl. She was with a big Book. Dictionary? Bible? may be anything. Hard! At this later hours she waitingthere! She was around14 or 15 years. She with yellow T
shirlt. Dark blue jeans. She was Sitting on a diase. NEar by some village ladies. I pass by near her, i too sat just next to her.


was she from that group? or alone? I wonderd. I just Peeped her. Just a young.Her face was lighted by the Sodium lamp with many meanings. I got more vomiting sensation. i felt the chicken my throt. I suddnly decied. i jumped up, I was looking a place to vomit. walked near a shadddow. Went but returnd back with out doing it. She now followd me and stood near an Auto. Now i saw her clearly. Ahe was standing with poor make up, Her small Breasts r palm size. One can easily idintify her inner projection , even me galnced the tip of her projection.

The vellore fort is famous for it good old profeeison.

Dramatic things hapend afterthat. The big suitcase man was standing near the 216 bus. just far away in a little distance the man with Lungi was sitting with a man. They r under a dark place. i understood what they up to.

Everybody witnessing everything with a great silent. But There must be noice in there souls!

The 216 bus lights were on. we went nearby. The big suitcase man went in the bus, arranged the suitcase , gotdown and standing near the bus near steps!
The Lungi man still under the dark place. The another man with him was bit busy and ...



The girl was suddenly approched by a hero honda. There were two. They talked with her. with fraction of second, they asked her to sit betwen them. I got sudden jelouse. She sat beween them like a paper. the boy behind her hold her tightly. they just passed by the shadows and light . they gone!



Suddenly i heard the Police whisle. Big whisle now. They shouted the Lungi man. he just waked fast. Pass in to a dark end. the police cought the aonther man and qusetioned him. they warned him. He moved fastly .


The night was too night. Some trichy buses came and went. Some strted sleeping . Some group of ladies cam and got in to Auto. The sky was too dark but It aslo reflected Soduim Vapour! I found no stars. Some sleeples beggers was sitting and Splitting on the wall. The big suitace man called some body!

I too got in to the bus. Some more fellow pasengers occupied. I am satiesfied with my seat.

I wonder what hapened to that girl. She must be Used to this. I imagined some noughty poistions they would do with her! May AIDS not touch them!



Now again i heard poilce whisle. They cought the lungi fellow. Brought him to the Big siutcaeman. The suitcase man told the police that, Those two fellows did bad sex job there near the dark side of the bus stand.



The police coughthold of his shirt . I named the lungi man as James or sunder. Let it be james sunder.

They dragged him to some were else. big suitcase man stilll standing near the rear steps.

The poilce asked the jamessunder something. He was biting his nails. told something. again they dragged him some were!

The conducter collected tickets. A man with his wife,big medical bandage in the neck enterd and immediatly got down ,strted smoking the beedi. I observed one after another- he made chain smoking!


Some of them got ticket for Arni. I was to chetpet. it was nearly after 2 years back to my house there!

Suddenly i heard james sunder voice.He came back to bus again!escaped frm the police!

he talked with the Big suitcase man.

" LOOK . I AM POTTAI. NAN ORU POTTAI. I TOLD THE POLICE. I AM A POTTAI. HOW CAN I EARN? THE MAN THERE ASKED ME TO sex with him.HE PROMISED ME TO GIVE 100 RS. FOR THAT HE CALLED TO KATPADI. I REFUESD TO GO KATPADI. I AM A POTTAI. HOW CAN EARN"

the big sutcase man did not expected this. he baffeled. the sunder continued.

" U see? Y u told the police man like that? I am a pottai. i no rowdy. i no thief. Somebody Buttucks me and they pay. I live. Now u argued with police. y? was it fair?

he must have been drunked while. he splitted something outfrom his mouth.
" Look. Still 14 days more to the full moon. new year. i go to koovagam I cut my Thali. I to attend the fucntion,now? I donthave money to go there?"

"Everybody knows me here. ALL the day I am here in this vellore busstand. All know me. Who u r? Y u argued with that poilce. I no rwody. i no thief. I a pottai."the police know me well too.

I signeld the bigsuitcase man to came inside the bus as the sunder became furius.the big suitcase man enetrd the bus. He strted talking with me about what he done. I signelld him no talk.,


Now the sunder moved away. The voice wanning...." Y god created us? what we did. PO PO. Nee poice kitta argue [pannthukku, nallave irukka matte....' he went some were.


The bus strted now. All set to journy. The cool breeze or something Blowing us. The cool breeze also dark in clolour. everything is night. ALl faces is refleting the night. the bus was too speed.It passes the night like an arrow. it was nearly 1 45. am
Ater that.....

the bus suddnly stoped after 20 minutes journy. A lady knocking a man on the middle of the road. the bus sided them and speeded again. night was so night.

I reahced my home and rang the bell. It was 3 15 am.

The stars r twinkling.



I spotted Some costellation in the sky. Scorpios. Its been there for Many ugas. Yes ,the night is wacthing all the ugas and the stars. the night is bright.the night is mystic. the night is night. it paases through the origin.

AMMA OPEND THE DOOR.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Appa worked as a Village karnam.
Karnam posts were abolished by then government.
He lost his job one day. His relation all lost the jobs. All were above 50s then.some of them have gone mad. The Adangal books, chains, and all belongings of Appa's work was took away by the government. Some Karnams r dead by shock. Some of them Were chased by their own family. There children got some poor jobs in printing press.One of my Appa's relation strted robbing the cycles. people chased him and identified him as " MAD" later he comitted sucide.Some karnams Taken d life as doccument writer . Their one day income was just 20 rs or so.I was in gradution at that time. Appa has two families. Both the mothers not supported my Appa. He just kept him- self running here and there . He found no place to saty on. Both my mothers denied to accept him. The same happened for my brothers also. My annies found lot of misunderstanding with my appa. Years ran. I finshid my Degree. Post garaduation. My Appa got old day by day. finally he was in chennai with my elder brother who worked in a shoe company. All stay in a room. I too got a job then. Alas. I too failed to keep him. years paased. HE got admitted in a hospital . I dischrged him from the hospital. I droped him in my elder brothr's house. Later after 3 days....He passed away.

When he was a village karnam, He owned lands. Even he ran a cinema " tent". He ran a Ration Shop! Slowly he sold one by one. He never returned to His own Village after he lost the job.

Now we have Modernised Village karnams As VAOs. I find all them ride Bikes. Drinking. Wearing Phants. Mostly rich. they considerd as Chief of all village and towns.

Appa gave me a cycle to me. It is with me now. The wheels r rusted. seat is damaged. flatened tyers. Appa always clean my cycle . He adjust the breaks. He check the bell. He adjust the balance by testing the handle bars. He always instruct me how to ride a cycle safly.

I failed my self to handle him safley.

Appavirku

Appa worked as a Village karnam.
Karnam posts were abolished by then government.
He lost his job one day. His relation all lost the jobs. All were above 50s then.some of them have gone mad. The Adangal books, chains, and all belongings of Appa's work was took away by the government. Some Karnams r dead by shock. Some of them Were chased by their own family. There children got some poor jobs in printing press.One of my Appa's relation strted robbing the cycles. people chased him and identified him as " MAD" later he comitted sucide.Some karnams Taken d life as doccument writer . Their one day income was just 20 rs or so.I was in gradution at that time. Appa has two families. Both the mothers not supported my Appa. He just kept him- self running here and there . He found no place to saty on. Both my mothers denied to accept him. The same happened for my brothers also. My annies found lot of misunderstanding with my appa. Years ran. I finshid my Degree. Post garaduation. My Appa got old day by day. finally he was in chennai with my elder brother who worked in a shoe company. All stay in a room. I too got a job then. Alas. I too failed to keep him. years paased. HE got admitted in a hospital . I dischrged him from the hospital. I droped him in my elder brothr's house. Later after 3 days....He passed away.

When he was a village karnam, He owned lands. Even he ran a cinema " tent". He ran a Ration Shop! Slowly he sold one by one. He never returned to His own Village after he lost the job.

Now we have Modernised Village karnams As VAOs. I find all them ride Bikes. Drinking. Wearing Phants. Mostly rich. they considerd as Chief of all village and towns.

Appa gave me a cycle to me. It is with me now. The wheels r rusted. seat is damaged. flatened tyers. Appa always clean my cycle . He adjust the breaks. He check the bell. He adjust the balance by testing the handle bars. He always instruct me how to ride a cycle safly.

I failed my self to handle him safley.